Past Numb Into Anger. . .

The "Why" of my Journey Past Numbness, Into Anger. . .

It just kept coming at us.  First the "stolen" election, the immediate raping of the largest surplus in our treasury's history, and the concurrent tax cuts for the rich, including the tax increases on the middle class, the $300 tax-back - that in reality had to be "paid back" the next year, packing the federal regulatory agencies with corporate deregulation zealots - Whom had spent their entire careers fighting the very agencies that they now controlled - for their controlling corporations - not for the "public good," the daily-dismantling of all environmental laws by said zealots and allowed by the congress, the breaking of almost all international treaties, The never-give-up breakdown of the separation of church and state so to benefit the "Evangelical Christian" ideology, then 9/11. . .

Then it got worse. . . .  The surpression of dissent, the Project for a New American Century, the Patriot Act, aggressive-preemptive-war became "okay," the cowardly and complicit media caving into arrogant jingoism, the taking of war-powers out of the hands of congress into the hands of one person, the stonewalling of the 9/11 investigation, the pushing of insane bigots and/or evangelical fundamentalists into the federal Judicial branch, then the 2002 mid-term elections. . .

And again it got worse. . .  The full impact of "one-party-rule" and media corporate control got bolder, corporate scandals got buried, realization that several of the mid-term "surprise" elections were controlled and corrupted by corporations openly biased to the "winners," (i.e. in Nebraska and Georgia,) Then the war in Iraq. . .

And it again got worse. . .  The "Shock & Awe" 48 hours of bombings killing thousands of innocent Iraqis, the faked cheering Iraqis at the staged pulling down of Saddam's statue, the fake "Mission Accomplished" stunt, more tax cuts slanted towards the upper 2% - for the first time in our nation's history during war time and bad economy - Patriot Act II, No WMDs, revelations of lies, arrogant spinning of the lies got even worse, free-speech zones, arresting Americans for wearing a shirt or carrying a sign - on public property - showing a "disagreement" - arrested - for free-speech - in America, the having to sign "loyalty oaths" for an American citizen to be able to "get in" to see the president give a public speech - in a public place - loyalty oaths - in America, the corrupt and complicit media not saying "What's wrong with this picture?", the un-lawful detention of American citizens as "enemy combatants" without charges, without access to any due process, in America. . .

And still it got worse. . .  the exposure that our government condones torture - torture - not just torture of "enemy adults," but of common criminals, of even children - children - condoned, and rationalized, by American "leaders" of this administration - which heads the party of our now one-party-ruled corrupt corporatist government, etc.

Meanwhile. .  As all of that was/is going on, we approach another presidential election.  I see that even with all that has been revealed/exposed/proven - It is possible, as unbelievable as it may seem, to sane-rational people who have been paying attention, it is possible "they" could win the election.  Amazingly it seems, somehow, this is still a "close" race.  When I realized that these murderous corrupt corporatists, after all that has been shown to the American people, that we could actually put these insanely criminal ideologues back in control of what is left of our American Democracy - That was when I went from stunned/numb, directly into out-right anger.